Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Current Mood: I don't even know!

Lately I've been so out of sync with myself. I have every reason to be happy but I'm not! Well, that's not completely true, I have been feeling a bit left out by my friends. Sometimes I feel like I'm the third wheel when I hang out with them. It feels to me like I have to force them to hang out with me. Anyone whose reading this is probably thinking "well you need to let them "friends" go" but, I love my friends. I wasn't the most popular kid growing up, I was very shy and because of that I didn't have a social life. So now that I do have people I can call on and visa verse, it's hard for me to let them go(sadface). I just wish people would realize how much they meant to me and showed me that same love in return.
I think I just need a change of setting. I really wanted to move to DC this coming spring but, that doesn't seem like its gonna happen. If this job thing works out I'm def. gonna move by the fall. I've been in Syracuse for almost 3 years now, I can't take it for much longer.
I'm also single, which is okay with me. I'm not really looking for a relationship right now, maybe some company every now and then but, nothing other than that. However, there is this guy that I call my "doodle bug" that I think would be a great match with me but, he lives in New Orleans...or Michigan...I don't remember.
That's about all I have to say for right now...I'm going to try to update this thing more...but you know how that be!