Christmas sucks! Random thinkings...

So Christmas was a few days ago, some friends and I went out to eat Christmas night due to the club we wanted to go to being closed. I had a date Christmas Eve which was really nice. I paid for the whole date but, it was my pleasure doing so. I picked him up from work and we went to the movies and to Denny's. I know, we tried to go to Applebee's but it was Christmas Eve and everything was closed, we had a good time and that's all that matters right?
If you've read my blog before you'd know I'm doing this celibacy thing and have been for the past 7, going on 8, months. So needles to say, I didn't get any Christmas "nookie" lol. Which I honestly think sucks! I mean I'm a good guy, I treat people with respect, I work, I go to school, I think I'm attractive and not to many people have disagreed. So why haven't I been able to find what I'm looking for.
I've been told I need to stop looking, and I stopped for awhile but, the expectation of someone just falling on my laps is ridiculous! I'm gay and gay guys don't just grow on gay trees, especially the good ones. *Checks BGC* Sigh...I'm about a week and a half away from giving up.

I realize something just now, almost all my post are about me being lonely...Wow...But it honestly consumes my every waking moment.

It's the holiday's and I should be cheerful, but I have no one to cheer for. Sometimes I think life would be easier if I were straight...

Forgive this post, it's not really focused.