Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Sex...

...Is non-existent in the life of me. I haven't had a good piece in 5 and a half months. Thank baby Jesus for Internet porn lol. I guess I'm being celibate, I don't really like it but I appreciate it for what it is. My town just doesn't have the quality of men I'm looking for. I'm constantly being bombarded with guys who wanna hook up, and that's just not an interest of mine any longer. I'm growing surprisingly. Many people are surprised to find out that I was actually a virgin until I was 19 years old; and since then I've done somethings, and some people, that I'm not that proud of. But the thing that bothers me the most is how I let relationships and sex take over my thoughts. I've gotten to a point where I thought to truly and fully be happy I needed someone next to me in my bed. Its been hard to get back into the mind-frame of being happy with myself completely. Its been my journey these days. But I'm making strides.

1 comment:

Noble P said...

abstaining from sex is difficult especially in this day and age with sex everywhere you look. But you are sticking to your guns and shake a titty to you for doing that o_O.

Sometimes its all about location location location. That's how i feel at least which is another reason why I moved to another state myself. L.A. is sexified all over the place lol. Maybe atlanta wasnt the best option but it certainly gives me a different point of view on guys.